Wednesday, August 24, 2011

This is the stuff....

I refuse to give in to my "irritations" from the last few days and instead I am going to post the lyrics to a new fave song of mine that reminds me just how blessed I am. I refuse to let satan control my thoughts of doubt and rejection...REFUSE. So,  enjoy the song :-) It's a very catchy tune and I LOVE Francesca Battestilli!!



I lost my keys in the great unknown

And call me please 'Cuz I can't find my phone



This is the stuff that drives me crazy

This is the stuff that's getting to me lately

In the middle of my little mess

I forget how big I'm blessed

This is the stuff that gets under my skin

But I gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing

It might not be what I would choose

But this is the stuff You use



45 in a 35

Sirens and fines while I'm running behind

Whoa



This is the stuff that drives me crazy

This is the stuff that's getting to me lately

In the middle of my little mess

I forget how big I'm blessed

This is the stuff that gets under my skin

But I gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing

It might not be what I would choose

But this is the stuff You use



So break me of impatience

Conquer my frustrations

I've got a new appreciation

It's not the end of the world

Oh Oh Oh



This is the stuff that drives me crazy

This is the stuff

Someone save me

In the middle of my little mess

I forget how big I'm blessed

This is the stuff that gets under my skin

And I've gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing

It might not be what I would choose

But this is the stuff You use






Lord,
Forgive me for my thoughts of complaints and being whiny sometimes...Help me not to sweat the small stuff. Thank you for loving and being patient with me. I am undeserving.
Love,
Kace











Monday, August 22, 2011

1st Day of Kindergarten

Eli is officially in KINDERGARTEN!!! He is doing so well and is LOVING his teacher, school, classmates, etc. Last week he only went 2 days because they do a "phase in" process for them. Tuesday was his 1st official full day, and he walked into the classroom and never looked back. I explained in my last post that it had just started to hit me that he was going to school full-time and it honestly had not "upset" me like I hear so many other mom's talk about. The first day his teacher (who is Mrs. Abby Sutton and we LOVE LOVE her!!!) allowed the parents to walk them into the school and into the class so that we could take a few pictures and say our goodbye's. As I took Eli into his class and he found his seat I was snapping a few pictures for the scrapbook and grandparents. He looks up at me and says, "Mom, why are you taking pictures of me?!" I said, "So, that your daddy and Gigi and Poppy can see!" He proceeds to take a minute to think and then says, " You tell Poppy that I got this!!!" It was HYSTERICAL. I could barely get him to tell me bye. I was ok after leaving and to be honest I don't think it "hit" me until his second day which was on Thursday. This day we had to just drop them off in the car rider line, and wave goodbye. As my baby boy turned and looked at me with his backpack on and waved bye....it hit me. The tears came and I could not believe that we were in this phase of his life. Don't get me wrong they are all happy tears and tears that come with the excitement of knowing what the next 12 years hold for us! Today started his first full week and let me just say that getting the boys up everyday at 6 am to get ready and be at school on time is a change for us. We have had the luxury of me being able to be at home and not really have a strict schedule since Eli was born. So lots of changes all the way around. I start my classes next week so life will get a little more hectic, but we are embracing all the new and taking it one day at a time! God is so good and I know he is wrapping up both my boys daily :-)

Uh, yea...so he is only 4 remember?!!?!?!

Monday, August 8, 2011

Bittersweet

Bittersweet sorrow is a contradictory emotion where a circumstance or event causes sadness, but the event is also good for you and /or others. ...



The above definition could not better describe the feelings that this mommy is having these days. So many changes in our house...no much "new". It is all happening so fast that my head just spins. My own new ventures in life have at time caused me to have blinders on to just how fast my sweet boys are growing. I keep getting asked if Eli starting Kindergarten is breaking my heart or tearing me up....Most of the time I have answered with "No, he is beyond ready and with my school I have not been able to think about it much to where it makes me sad yet." Does that make me a bad mom? I at first felt really bad about it because let me just tell you I have been at home with my boys since a month before Eli was born. Being with them 24/7, 7 days a week, 365 days/year is ALL I HAVE KNOWN. They are my first thought in the morning and my last thought at night, and trust me I would not change ANYTHING! I am truly, unbelieveably, thankful that our family was lucky enough to take advantage of me being a stay at home mommy. We have been so blessed in that even in hard times God has always taken care of us. My wonderful, handsome, hard working hubby also have a ton to do with it ;-) Along with my thankfulness in the last year I have been at home I have also known that my time of just being "mommy" was coming to a close. Not because it had to or even just because the boys were getting older, because I KNEW that it was time. Time for me to accomplish those dreams that I have always had for myself. Time to better my family's future even more securely, and time to be able to give back in a way that I know God has called me too. It is an amazingly exciting, scary, and sad feeling all at the same time, but I am taking it by the reigns and going with it full force. Along with the changes to my schedule and free time our family has experienced lots of major milestones with the precious angels God has gave us.

Preston has 99% mastered potty training!!! Let me just tell you this kiddo is S.M.A.R.T.!!! He amazes me with his constantly expanding vocabulary and his ability to easily pick up things so quickly. He not only wore his underwear all day with no accidents, but he also started at his new private preschool today. He will go 2 days a week until Christmas and then 3 or maybe more after Christmas because of my demanding school schedule. I am so thankful for this new school and the doors it is opening for our Super P. He will always be my "babay" (yes, the spelling is correct...thats how we say it...lol), but he is quickly becoming a little man....just like his big brother.

Eli....oh goodness...Our first born, our "bubby", our rambunctious, funny, SMART, handsome, smooth-talking, Eli :-) ( Can I just add also "skinny and tall" and when I say it I MEAN it...lets just say his legs need a size 6-7, but his skinny behind is to tiny for a 6 SLIM to fit?!?!?) Eli starts Kindergarten next week, and while above I talked about how it had not yet hit me yet...it started to today, and right now I am not really sure how I feel...bittersweet. That is truly the perfect word to describe it. I have no doubt that he will walk into that new classroom and never look back besides to say "See ya, Mom!" and I will have to get back to you on how I react after that ;-) I am so proud of this sweet boy. He is such a great big brother and I can not wait to see what the next 12 years hold for us. He will also turn 5 in a month and that is just CRAZY!!

Now that I have written a book I want to leave you guys with some pictures that make my heart smile....Bittersweet smiles.

This is his "I'm strong like daddy!" pose :-)

Super P's First Day of Preschool


Our World!!

Bubby and Babay,
I hope you 2 know how proud your Daddy and I are of you both. We pray that whatever life may bring that you will always look to the Lord for your strength, but also know that we are  right there to hold you up and be there for you no matter what life may hold. You both have such bright futures!! We can't wait to watch. Love you to the moon and back, sweet angels.
Love,
Mom


Ah, Bittersweet.


Monday, August 1, 2011

Memory Lane...

I found this video today while going through some old computer files. I made this video for Eli before he turned 2 years old. Next week my baby boy will start Kindergarten and in almost a month he will turn 5!!! This brought lots of tears...sad ones b/c he is growing so fast, but happy ones to see how much he is growing into a handsome young boy whom his daddy and I are so very proud of. Eli Wade, you ARE so amazing and we pray that you always shine like the stars in everything you do! We love you always, bubby!