The above definition could not better describe the feelings that this mommy is having these days. So many changes in our house...no much "new". It is all happening so fast that my head just spins. My own new ventures in life have at time caused me to have blinders on to just how fast my sweet boys are growing. I keep getting asked if Eli starting Kindergarten is breaking my heart or tearing me up....Most of the time I have answered with "No, he is beyond ready and with my school I have not been able to think about it much to where it makes me sad yet." Does that make me a bad mom? I at first felt really bad about it because let me just tell you I have been at home with my boys since a month before Eli was born. Being with them 24/7, 7 days a week, 365 days/year is ALL I HAVE KNOWN. They are my first thought in the morning and my last thought at night, and trust me I would not change ANYTHING! I am truly, unbelieveably, thankful that our family was lucky enough to take advantage of me being a stay at home mommy. We have been so blessed in that even in hard times God has always taken care of us. My wonderful, handsome, hard working hubby also have a ton to do with it ;-) Along with my thankfulness in the last year I have been at home I have also known that my time of just being "mommy" was coming to a close. Not because it had to or even just because the boys were getting older, because I KNEW that it was time. Time for me to accomplish those dreams that I have always had for myself. Time to better my family's future even more securely, and time to be able to give back in a way that I know God has called me too. It is an amazingly exciting, scary, and sad feeling all at the same time, but I am taking it by the reigns and going with it full force. Along with the changes to my schedule and free time our family has experienced lots of major milestones with the precious angels God has gave us.
Preston has 99% mastered potty training!!! Let me just tell you this kiddo is S.M.A.R.T.!!! He amazes me with his constantly expanding vocabulary and his ability to easily pick up things so quickly. He not only wore his underwear all day with no accidents, but he also started at his new private preschool today. He will go 2 days a week until Christmas and then 3 or maybe more after Christmas because of my demanding school schedule. I am so thankful for this new school and the doors it is opening for our Super P. He will always be my "babay" (yes, the spelling is correct...thats how we say it...lol), but he is quickly becoming a little man....just like his big brother.
Eli....oh goodness...Our first born, our "bubby", our rambunctious, funny, SMART, handsome, smooth-talking, Eli :-) ( Can I just add also "skinny and tall" and when I say it I MEAN it...lets just say his legs need a size 6-7, but his skinny behind is to tiny for a 6 SLIM to fit?!?!?) Eli starts Kindergarten next week, and while above I talked about how it had not yet hit me yet...it started to today, and right now I am not really sure how I feel...bittersweet. That is truly the perfect word to describe it. I have no doubt that he will walk into that new classroom and never look back besides to say "See ya, Mom!" and I will have to get back to you on how I react after that ;-) I am so proud of this sweet boy. He is such a great big brother and I can not wait to see what the next 12 years hold for us. He will also turn 5 in a month and that is just CRAZY!!
Now that I have written a book I want to leave you guys with some pictures that make my heart smile....Bittersweet smiles.
This is his "I'm strong like daddy!" pose :-)
Super P's First Day of Preschool
Our World!!
Bubby and Babay,
I hope you 2 know how proud your Daddy and I are of you both. We pray that whatever life may bring that you will always look to the Lord for your strength, but also know that we are right there to hold you up and be there for you no matter what life may hold. You both have such bright futures!! We can't wait to watch. Love you to the moon and back, sweet angels.
Love,
Mom
Ah, Bittersweet.
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